THEATERS

OKAY. Now I know I was going to post about my theater group, and I never did! Well you know what it wasn't bad. The play actually went fairly well, and I got compliments on it being my first role and all and that I did pretty well. It felt so nice! But our second play Inspector General kinda failed! Of course we had the people that pulled it through with great acting but everyone else were kind of bleh. I contributed to the blehness.... oh. Now we're doing Romeo and Juliet. Of course I'm Lady Montague, and I barely have any lines! I guess it makes sense cause I completely screwed my part in Inspector General over. But I got extra lines with the Chorus, so if I do them well, I hope I'll win my director's trust again! So yeah I hope I do well! We go on in may!

And also I joined theater in school. Of course I'm on a crew (costumes!) because we do musicals here and I have bad stage fright plus I only started taking choir serious now pretty much. You know maybe by senior year I'll get some part in it someday. But for now I think my place is at the sewing machine (LOLSEXISTJOKE?)! :D But oh well. The play we are currently doing is very 8Os so costumes crew will be knitting leg warmers! Oh I'm excited! For tech week especially. It's when everyone shows up and stays so late. oh YAY!

I'm 15 and what is this?

Hello! I guess it's been almost a year since my last post. well nearly, since it was updated last end of spring, and its just the beginning of spring. But that's not important! So I know no one reads this but I do. And you know what, it felt really ridiculous and embarrassing reading over my little boy problems, but I found other things that were interesting enough from a while back. I do have to say that most of those problems are solved. Sort of. It was interesting to read my rant on teenagers, and then my little post about being confused about what my personality was. Or my rant on religion. But I need to make a separate post for that later!

I really wont promise this time to update every day. I guess I'll update whenever I feel like it really! Or whenever I come across here, or want to get something out. You know there might be a couple of people that might read these if I show it to them, so it doesn't matter if random strangers don't read these. I know I will at some point!

So yeah I found this. And now I'll make updates on things in all these different posts! Have fun reading?

Hello there I believe we've met!

Okay it's clearly been a long time. I know I keep promising myself to post post post post every day but I end up losing interest anyway and forget about it. Well it's not like anyone actually READS this stuff so I'm going to just say I'll post whenever I feel like it. Yeah after this you probably wont hear from me for about another good 5 months. Well anyway. I promised to tell you how the play went.

I had really bad allergies and while I was off blowing my nose I missed a small scene. Oh well not the end of the world. We're having the play again in september so w/e. Other than that it was pretty fun. I think for a first time play I didn't fail. People even told me that =o.

Umm what else.... I moved into a house. Well it's more like a trailor but I love it here!

I bought Breaking Dawn. Yes I'm going to have a twilight rant in another post.

My room actually stays CLEAN now. It's something I'm quite proud of.

That's it for NOW cause I'm going to keep my posts short and sweet. Maybe not so sweet but you get the point.

P.S. Sorry for the weird duck picture. I was too lazy to search for more appropariate signs.

Theater

I always wanted to be part of a theater group. I was always good at fake crying. I always got people with it - it was a lot of fun. Well I don't mean to sound self absorbed or anything but I always thought I was quite an actress ;). Like as in when I read a script it didn't sound like plain reading off a piece of paper, like in class or something. It had enthusiasm and passion! And if it didn't need enthusiasm and passion, it had whatever it needed to. Or so I thought. And I'm usually my own biggest critic so if I like something I do then I really do think I do it well, and usually I'm not the only one either.
So okay I was part of this one Russian school thing and they asked me to join their Russian club and the theater because they REALLY needed girls! The first play was a Russian thing for little kids that people set up on new years with the Russian Santa and his Granddaughter and everything, plus this thing called audience participation. That's where the Santa takes all the kids around different corners of the room that are set up as a bear den or a wolf den and the people dressed as bears or wolves play games or solve holiday riddles with the kids. Then there is the evil witch that kidnapped the Santa's Granddaughter and the kids and Santa have to find her. Well I got to play the witch, and I felt really good later cause my dad got everything on tape and that was like a bigger role than first timers get, and people told me that I did it as if I was doing it all my life! It made me feel special :).
We are doing another play now, this time a MUCH bigger one and not childish. Ever heard of a film/musical fiddler on the roof? Yeah we are doing that one but rewritten a bit so it was called Pomenal'naya Molitva, which translates to I forget what but its something prayer, but then we renamed it to Tevye The Milkman. So yeah. I'm playing his 3rd oldest daughter Chava. Which sounds more like Hava. So yeah. I'll post more about how THAT goes later! Bye!!

Oh no.

I know I haven't blogged in a while. A lot of stuff happened. I'll post about my Russian school later (I joined a Russian theater group yay!!!). Well you really think you know someone but you later find out you don't. Then they convince you they've changed and you come back to them, to an old friend, thinking everything is perfect again. Then they drop you like a rock and tell you all the stuff they hid from you. Then you realize you thought you knew, you thought they changed, but turns out, they didn't. That it was just an act. That they are almost REALLY that careless. Or so it seems to you. I don't want to get into details because it hurts but I just wanted to write that. Sorry it's pointless since only my friends know what's going on. Most of them. Then again those are the peole who read this as far as I know but whatever.
Summer '08, the horrible summer, all over again. Oh well on with my other entries.

Religion. What's the big deal?

One thing I don't get in America. Well maybe this goes on in Russia but not as much. One of the reasons is in America there is so many other religions, and SOOO many teenagers desperate to be "different" so they decided to become atheists or satanists or something for whatever reason. Then all this stuff happens. You know what I mean by stuff.

Okay so I'm Christian, and for some reason a lot of people seem to think that Christians hate everyone who are goth, kick them out of their churches, call all goths and people from other religions satan worshipers. NOT TRUE. Not all Christian churches do that. Not all Christians accuse people of being satanists if they are goth or Christian. Just like some goth people accuse all Christians of hating the world if someone says they don't believe in God. Can you say the word HYPOCRIT?

I'm not trying to tell everyone that Christianity is the way to be, I'm not saying it's the only "true" religion. It's the most practiced religion - yeah! But it's way more complicated than just "fake", "made up", "just for money". I have some friends. I guess they don't think of me as a friend anymore though because I gave a negative response on one of their blogs about how Christianity is just a pile of crap and its fake and done for money and if it's real where is the "proof". That's what I mean about desperate teenagers trying to be different. In our teenage years we go through SO much phases, and our opinions change a trillion times. And now my friends tell me, "How do you know I'm not gonna be like this for the rest of my life?". Well how do you know you are? "Where is the proof that 'God' and 'Jesus' crap is real?". Where where is the proof it isn't? When I ask for examples on how it's fake and how it's just for money, some don't even say anything.

I know it sounds like I'm trying to make them believe in God, but im not. It doesn't matter to me who they worship. They can worship the Flying Spaghetti Monster for all I care! Ok NO that would just be DUMB (It takes only 300 idiots for something to be a religion, did you know that?). But it really did hurt when my friends started saying how they hate Christians and how Christianity is just a pile of B.S. When I ask them to be considerate about their Christian friends' feelings all they say is "sorry thats just who i am" or "i can say what i wanna say - freedom of religion and freedom of speech". Well freedom of religion - yeah I can see how that works. Freedom of speech too. BUT, freedom of religion - that means to not force everyone to be your religiong right? And the seperation of church and state right? Yeah pretty much, but shouldn't also things like "dissing each and every religion in your way just cause you want to rebel to everyone else and be all smart and make everyone feel bad" count too? And freedom of speech has its own restrictions of course - state only the truth, be reasonable, and have it not hurt anyone (see the 1st Amendment in the Constitution).

I think that dissing Christianity like that just because you don't believe in God and want to show off for all your friends is a little immature... But that's just me. And the sad things is those friends don't even care about how I feel just because it's "their opinion". Again, I don't care if they don't believe in God. I'm just wondering why is it that, they don't really have much against Bhuddists (sorry for any spelling errors) and Hinduism, or Wicca, but think Christianity is so bad? It's still the same idea - someone created the universe and made our souls. Except with different names. I mean yeah in some religions there is heaven and hell, rebirth, reincarnation, etc. But STILL. Just cause you don't follow that religion that DOESN'T mean that you should run around screaming about how its a fake pile of crap and everyone is being lied to (and that it's your opinion so everyone should just SUCK IT UP)! Seriously people, some of you need to rethink some things.

The times are changing my friends.

Well this post is a bit less dramatic than the title but, I changed my blog name. I changed it because I want to have a blog thats actually interesting to read, not like my daily problems or whatever, but actually about SOMETHING. All the people that I know that have blogs always have them about something interesting, whether its about life, or travels, or just "ramblings & rants" about the different aspects of life. Nah I'm not going to delete my old enteries. I'm just going to put up some new ones, that have to do with my blog's name change. Yeah a bit more about myself as you can say. A bit more about my country's culture. You know I mean almost everyone knows what Russia is, but they just don't know much about it. I'm pretty sure not everyone cares, but I think I'd want my friends to know. Or like Amelia is currently blogging about her life in France. I have the advantage of coming from another country and knowing two languages and cultures, so why not use it? Maybe I'll even have some blogs in Russian (I really have to practice typing and grammar sometimes) but I'll put the translation up along with it too.

So what I really wanted to say is that I'm going to have a lot of enteries be about maybe what I do in my Russian school on saturdays, and what we learned there that is pretty cool (because my teacher sent me a link with a site that has pictures of old writings and paintings on wood and tree bark - it's pretty amazing!). So I'll post more maybe later today about that! But of coures I'm not saying that EVERY SINGLE entery is going to be about that, so there might be others just about maybe what happened at school or something else like that, but like all my other friends, I'm going to focuse on something that actually has a purpous!